Been There

A friend recently wrote that she had "been in the bowels of hatred and anger..." I've been sitting in this place too this week feelin' like a real hater at my work (non kid related-btw). It's a real b*tch trying to claw your way out of the muck and mire. Throwing your hands up and giving in to fate is not easy. I'm a fighter by nature. So bending over and taking it gracefully with a smile as the lone tear elegantly slides down my cheek (can't stand a martyr!) is NOT my style. Kicking, cussing, spitting, and making it worse in the end-now that feels RIGHT. Even when you know you're going DOWN.